Wednesday, March 31, 2010

day ONE! go go go~~*

So, I watched that Julia & Julie movie several weeks ago.. I didn't love it.. but I thought that it was nice how Julie embarked on a little adventure..
Out of boredom, I've decided to see if I could go 21 days without eating anything...not-primitive.
Daniel Fast is what it's called, but I don't want to call it that.. because the word "fast" makes it sound all holy.. and spiritual..& those are not my intentions.
Daniel Diet is another name, but that makes it sound like I'm doing some.. banana/lemon fad diet/cleanser.. which is also not what I'm after.
I have opted to calling it "my Daniel thing."
Isn't that perfect?
Specific enough to where you'll know what I'm talking about, yet ambiguous enough to give this project's purpose some space :).


I went to the store last night,, after watching "Did You Hear About the Morgans?"
which by the way, I thought the movie was really awkward.. and the two had no chemistry..
I blame it on SJP.. I don't think the role was very fitting for her
..but then again, that could be a biased remark.. cus I love Hugh Grant<3
bought some veggies and beans..
went back home and made pasta.
I was scared that it would be bland.. considering I used only salt & cayenne pepper to season, but I realized vegetables are quite flavorful!
This thought led me to another-- when we use pasta sauce for pasta.. it's amazing how much flavor from the components are just sucked out!

Breakfast & Dinner do not worry me much, as I usually have a banana & pb&honey sandwich (the latter, I cannot consume for this thing, so I've replaced the sandwich with an apple & edemames.)

Lunch, also does not worry me much,, I just need to replace the meat factor with some greens or beans or potaters or vatever.

I worry about the "going out and eating with friends."
yes. this is & will continue to be my greatest concern & fear.
Oh, I am also abstaining from coffee. no caffeine!

SO this morning, I woke up all swollen eyed; KNOCKED out on marta; aaand arrived to the SRC brain dead.
I started my workout with anaerobic stuff... and it was all oh so very sluggish.
I even dozed off on the mat while doing some core workouts (oooops.)
But do you know what the amazing thing about running when I'm brain dead is??
Because I'm running without thought, I'm able to run so much more...
I don't know whether I should be pleased about this or frustrated.
This clearly means that my body is capable of doing xxmiles, but because of my active brain, I end up doing xx-x number of miles. Sure, the few times where I'm running brain dead- I get some extra minutes in... but if only I were brain dead everyday!
I'd be running more than Salina Kosgei! kidding.
The power and control my brain has over my body is interesting, yet frightening.

oh! last weekend, I bought this sunscreen lotion.. and I'm in love with it!
it's spf50, and it's not greasy, nasty smelling at all.. :)<3
of course, it's not exactly the silkiest, best-smelling product ever, but for sunblock-- it's money! x)

I've blabbered long enough.. hopefully not all my posts will be this long..


Tuesday, March 30, 2010

purpose,,direction,, day ZERO.

In an attempt to put some direction and purpose in the life of this blog,
I'm going to use it as a little journal for the next... hmm, how long should I set the time frame for...?
is 40 days too long?
I suppose, I'll do it for 21 days- the length that Daniel sustained his little humdrum for..
what am I talking about you ask?..
I plan to take on the Daniel fast.
I don't think I can do this.. but I think I should start tomorrow, because I decided to do this impulsively, and my lunch consists of mucho meat. HAH.
some thoughts going through my mind..
- Me not being able to drink coffee worries me the most
- Along with me not being able to eat out with friends.
- I can picture myself accidentally eating something that I'm not supposed to...
merely because I didn't know that I wasn't allowed to. This sucks & no bad intentions were present... but I've come to learn and realize that intentions are worth nothing in this world.
...this is going to be interesting.

wish me luck! :)

Thursday, March 4, 2010

I hate coffee breath.

I forgot to chew gum this morning after I drank my coffee... and even though I've eaten a banana.. the coffee breath is swimming around my mouth. YUCK!

I hate being so obsessed with reasons.
reasons, answers, hypothesis, explanation, excuse,...what have you.
I wish I could be told, "cus that's just the way it is." and be tooootalllly okay with that crummy & thoughtless "answer."

When I'm....breathing, & not actively occupied with something, my mind is afloat... One of the few things that usually occupies my mind is, "why."
Why is blue....called "blue?"
Why isn't it fdsa?
It's almost like a 3-year old's brain on crack.

Another thing that almost always crosses my noggin.
Why is the majority of homeless (by black, I mean African American...not African, Jamaican, Dom. Republican, Aborigines, etc...)
Why not asian? hispanic? white? indian? etcetc...?
Okay, if you're white and homeless, you're kind of the epitome of fail.
I mean... you took this land and made it yours.. made your own rules up..kicked those that bothered you out...etc.
But doesn't it make sense for the minorities to be homeless?
For the most part, they don't speak English... the language of the land that they live in...
Because they're immigrants, the web of people they know is probably (or at least should be) far smaller than that of these black people...
I don't get it. You speak the language.. for the majority, you're not handicapped...and since you are the descendant of slaves that lasted, you are clearly made up of pretty decent genes.
I don't get it.. maybe it's because immigrants saved up a bit... but I mean, there are a good number of people that have screwed up their entrepreneurial businesses and have claimed bankruptcy...etcetc they're not homeless.
Even in this state of economy, there are plenty of jobs available for brainless twats.
I see "Help Wanted," "Now Hiring" signs pretty frequently...
So what is it?

So in conclusion, until there is a legit reason to explain and defend this group of ...people. I refuse to feel sorry for non-handicapped English speaking bums.

goooooooooooodness, I'm so thankful my essay is done with.. and that it's almost Friday, but jeebus. Can't it be Friday night already? I just want to sleep...and then indulge and waffle house. YUM.
the saddest thing is, I've actually been getting acceptable amounts of sleep this week..especially with the consideration of the workload that I've been given.

Am I making any sense?
Am I alone in this world of blabbering?
Helloo! (hello .. ello.... llo...oo...)<----- that's echo, by the way.
Okay, I've had too much caffeine. good day.

okay seriously. adios.